I'm Worthless

Apparently I had made a deal with my wife that if she got a new job she was applying for than we would spring for a smartphone like the one I've been using for a while. I had forgotten about this 'deal' until she reminded me. In typical 'mann' fashion we had her new toy in hand no less than 48 hours later (and at 250 less than the retail price). The whole conversation got me thinking about my phone, which is two years old (poor me right? Not really) It's worked great for me, does practically anything (my favorite thing to tell the students is that it can change the channels on the t.v., beat that!) and I've only dropped it 2-3 times. Make that 4. Riding my bike on Sunday God took my phone out of my pocket and slammed it on the ground. I know, I'm thinking the same thing, how rude! My phone wouldn't turn on and I just laughed to myself about the timing of all this...I guess I was getting a new phone after all. The most disappointing fact of all is that I lost all calendar appointments for the past two years and coming months in an instant. My phone has been my brain for a long time now and has my Bible, calendar, info, dates, phone numbers, a cool drug-selling game (just a game :), nonethless still very addicting) etc. Gone! Ouch. I started looking for a phone similar to Becca's but a little cheaper and have gotten close twice now on craigs list but no cigar. One guy said he'd sell it for $50 less than he posted it as, then he wouldn't email me back for a day, then he decided he wanted to keep it, then he said he'd sell it for the original price and now he's not sure again. Another one popped up today but was sold by the time I got to it. You'd think the sad part is that I have yet to land one...no, that is not the sad part although that is unfortunate. The sad part is how worthless, disappointed, and frustrated I have been this week with my mind fixated on what I DON'T have. I can't think about anything else, it's absolutely embarassing. This thing owns me right now and it won't let me go. As I read on a friend's blog, my life is way too comfortable if this is the kind of thing that is causing the most stress in my life. In the meantime here's a picture into my head, the only thing in my head...

This entry was posted by Josh Mann, on Thursday, May 17, 2007. WEIGH IN.